Oh

I have spent too much time & effort & love on you; and now I no longer have tears for you anymore.

Who Wants To Live Forever – Queen

There’s no time for us
There’s no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
From us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever….?

There’s no chance for us
It’s all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment
Set aside for us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?

Who dares to love forever?
When love must die

But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today

Who waits forever anyway?

friend

you say, “i’m cold.”
i say, “you can’t handle the truth.”

All You Need Is Love – OST of Across the Universe

There’s nothing you can do that can’t be done
Nothing you can sing that can’t be sung
Nothing you can say, but you can learn how the play the game
It’s easy

There’s nothing you can make that can’t be made
No one you can save that can’t be saved
Nothing you can do, but you can learn how to be you in time
It’s easy

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need

Love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need

There’s nothing you can know that isn’t known
Nothing you can see that isn’t shown
Nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be
It’s easy

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need

All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
Love is all you need
Love is all you need
Love is all you need
Love is all you need
Love is all you need
(She loves you yeah, yeah, yeah!)

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it’s time to say goodbye to my romantic notions and unrealistic ideals.
i never knew how sensitive the word “friend” was, until today.

it’s christmas again

Could You Be Mine This Christmas? – aftiel

It was once upon a time before,
Now seems so far away,
That I had watched you smile at me,
On that special Christmas day.

I remember the baubles on our Christmas tree
The magic of the dancing lights
The fireplace we both tried to build
While wishing that snow would come that night.

And my one single prayer this season
My only Christmas wish this year
A hope beyond all hopes I know
But I pray that you will hear.

Could you be mine this Christmas,
Would you hold me tight?
Could I lay in your arms this Christmas,
And tell me we’d be alright?

Could you be mine this Christmas,
Watch me fall asleep?
Kiss me under that mistletoe we hung once before,
As the clock strikes past Christmas eve?

Maybe one day I’ll find out
How Christmas came to be
But until I feel Christmas once again,
I remember how you had once held me.

And as I close my eyes to sleep
I’ll still wish with all my might
That you will be by my side again
As I fall asleep on at night.

So once again, I’ll pray for this,
A miracle, this Christmas eve,
And maybe God will hear my cry,
And send you back to me.

Could you be mine this Christmas,
Would you hold me tight?
Could I lay in your arms this Christmas,
And tell me we’d be alright?

Could you be mine this Christmas,
Watch me fall asleep?
Kiss me under that mistletoe we hung once before,
As the clock strikes past Christmas eve?

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I had originally intended to give this song to you as a Christmas gift, but I guess I lost my music, the melody, when I lost you.
I wanted to enclose it with a letter, to tell you I couldn’t go on, that we should go our separate ways, but then I’m suddenly reminded of the past — a past that I told myself I would never repeat.
So, as much as the song is yours, I’d never tell.

Happy Christmas, y’all. =)

gimme back christmas

All I Want For Christmas Is You – Olivia Olson (Love Actually OST)

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true…
All I want for Christmas is
You…

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don’t need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true…
All I want for Christmas is you…

Oh I won’t ask for much this Christmas
I won’t even wish for snow
I’m just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won’t make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won’t even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

You.. baby… you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere (so brightly everywhere)
And the sound of childrens’ laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing (oh yea)
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won’t you bring me the one I really need -
Won’t you please bring my baby to me…

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is
You (You)

And you
And you
And you

Yeah
You

All I Want For Christmas

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You see, that’s me sitting alone in the pub, greedily gulping down my whiskey, and somehow every single drop seems to have every single moment and memory of my life perpetuated within.
I pretend that all my memories are erased as I feel the sweet sting of my whiskey at the back of my tongue before finally letting it slide down my throat and relinquishing its taste.
And I imagine being happy again.
It was once upon a time that I loved Christmas.
Pity, it’s not once upon a time anymore.

proverbial ditch

Running Away – Hoobastank

I don’t want you, to give it all up
And leave your own life, collecting dust
And I don’t want you, to feel sorry for me
You never gave us, a chance to be

And I don’t need you, to be by my side
To tell me, that everything’s alright
I just wanted you, to tell me the truth
You know I’d do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Cause I did enough, to show you that I
Was willing to give, and sacrifice
And I was the one, who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough

And when I get close, you turn away
There’s nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you, to tell me the truth
You know I’d do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Is it me, is it you? (is it me, is it you)
Nothing that, I can do (nothing that, I can do)
To make you, change your mind (to make you)

Is it me, is it you? (so why do – you run – away)
Nothing that, I can do (won’t you tell me)
Is it a, waste of time? (why do – you run – away)

Is it me, is it you?
Nothing that, I can do
To make you, change your mind – no

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away? (what is it, I have to say)

So why are you running away? (to make you admit, you’re afraid)
Why are you running away?

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I’m not going to lose myself again; not this time, not anymore.

vulnerable

I Miss You – Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn’t think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can’t explain.
So would I be out of line if I said “I miss you”?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I’m wasting away.
I know I’ll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

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I honestly haven’t heard this song in ages, and I had almost forgotten the emotions they brought out in me — I forgot how I could feel this way.

but beyond music, how could you have made me feel this speechless, this out of control, this vulnerable?
Please let me hide in your arms again.
and if I can’t, please help me leave.

i think i just died and went to heaven

I’m Yours [Cover] – Daiyel (Del)

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
And nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We’re just one big family
And It’s our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I’m be saying is there ain’t no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It’s what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find that the sky is yours
Please don’t, please don’t, please don’t
There’s no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I’m yours!

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i swear, my jaw dropped when i heard this version. i simply cannot stop watching it.
I am in LOVE with him man.. oh and with:

• David Choi
  
  That Girl – David Choi

  Oh tonight I’m feeling fine
  I’m alone just wasting time
  no Friday movie nights or romantic candlelight

  I’m just having conversations
  with the thoughts in my head
  all I hear are angels crying
  oh won’t they just sing instead

  It would be wrong for me to say

  I don’t need that girl by my side
  I don’t need that girl in my life
  I don’t want to talk it out
  or hold her when she cries

  I don’t want to say she’s my kind
  I don’t want to say that she’s mine
  I don’t want to tell her
  that I love her more than life
  more than life, love her more than life

  Honestly, this won’t do
  how is she doing?
  I tell myself I’m feeling swell
  but I know I’m such a fool
  I’ll just take it as a new beginning
  but you know I don’t feel that way
  who will take all this pain away?

  I know it’s wrong for me to say

  Chorus

  Talk about a sin
  was the day I walked into the other side
  I would run back in
  I wouldn’t waste no time

  I know it’s wrong for me to say

  i actually BOUGHT HIS CD. gawd. /repeat mode on hur hur.

• AJ Rafael
  
  Showstopper – AJ Rafael

  You make my dreams come true
  and I love all the small things that you do,
  like blink 182
  You make my days go better and the way
  that the sun is shining through girl its all because of you

  And I know its tough right now but you’ll get it together
  and just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
  I won’t ever leave your side day or night or whenever
  but right now I gotta say

  That you’re a
  show stopper you are so hot and I cant get you off my mind
  show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
  when I see you in the lights
  you make everything alright
  and I know that I’d be fine if I had you

  You make me wanna dance
  cuz I’m happy but just know that I can’t dance
  so I’m sorry in advance
  and
  You make the stars shine brighter and the way
  that the moonlight hits your eyes
  makes me wanna be your guy
  and I know its tough right now now
  but you’ll get it together
  and just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
  I won’t ever leave your side day or night or whenever
  But at this moment I just wanna say, I just gotta

  That you’re a
  show stopper you are so hot
  and I can’t get you off my mind
  show stopper you’re a jaw dropper
  when I see you in the lights
  you make everything alright
  and I know that I’d be fine if I had you

  You make me feel like I’m flying
  no one can stop me from feelin’
  the way I do now no denying
  that you got me goin’ and now I’m falling

  i think it’s just something about pianists.. lol

• Kevin Jumba
  
  no song, this is one of HappySlip’s videos (and I must say, she’s pretty damn cute too).. he appears as “Minnie’s Boyfriend” lipsynching to some song. omg. /faints

  AAANNNNDDDDDD… I am officially back to my pedophiliac ways.

lol. this only goes to show that i have been surfing too much youtube.

and.. maybe, perhaps, i just had a quick little peek into heaven again.

maybe you really don’t

You Don’t Know Me – Jann Arden

You give your hand to me
And then you say hello
And I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don’t know me

No you don’t know the one
Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips
Longs to hold you tight
Oh I am just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been
Cause you don’t know me

I never knew the art of making love
No my heart aches with love for you
Afraid and shy I let my chance go by
The chance that you might love me too

You give your hand to me
And then you say goodbye
I watch you walk away beside the lucky guy
Oh you will never know
The one who loves you so
Well you don’t know me

You give your hand to me
And then you say goodbye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
Oh you will never know
The one who loves you so
Cause you don’t know me
Oh no you don’t know me
OOh…you don’t know me

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It’s never the one who can make you smile.
It’s the one that can bring a tear to your eye.

look what love has done

Look What Love Has Done – Patty Smyth

I woke up this morning feeling lonely
There’s so much my heart just does not understand
There were times when nothing really mattered
But now I find I care too much
There’s life in everything I touch

Look what love has done to me
I am not who I used to be
Everything is changing, now we’ll never be the same
Look at what love has done to us
Will we ever learn to trust
We’re running out of time, there’s so little time
Baby look what love has done to me

Oh, yeah

Now it’s late at night, I’m here without you
I’m trying to make my way to where you are
Can’t you see, I’ll still be here waiting
Can’t you see, our two hearts were always meant to be as one

Look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We’re running out of time, there’s so little time, baby
Will you look what love has done to me

I’m calling out your name, baby
Calling out, calling out, yeah, yeah, yeah

Now look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We’re running out of time
There’s so, so little time, baby
Oh, look what love has done
Baby look what love has done to me

Look what love has done
Done to me

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But in my twilight realities, you swept me off my feet and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. You spoke of music, of promises, of love.
You made me throw away any notions of the actualities of my existence I had before, and wore down my pride. And there I was, standing before you, stripped down to pure nakedness.
It scared me half to death — scared me that you could see me — my faults, my scars and without the different masks I put on everyday. I was undisguised, exposed, defenseless, unprotected.
I was vulnerable.
How could I run away then, when I knew you would know where exactly to find me? I couldn’t hide anymore.
But you took my shivering body in your warm embrace, kissed my quivering lips, held my hand in yours.
Then, you made love to me.
Why did the sunshine have to creep past my curtains and rouse me from my utopian world?

/bounce

Accidentally in Love – Counting Crows

So she said what’s the problem baby
What’s the problem I don’t know
Well maybe I’m in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can’t stop thinking ’bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can’t ignore it if it’s love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don’t know nothing ’bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody’s after love

So I said I’m a snowball running
Running down into the spring that’s coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn’t mean to do it
But there’s no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we’re never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We’re accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I’m In Love, I’m in Love,
I’m in Love, I’m in Love,
I’m in Love, I’m in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world’s a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love …I’m in love

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In that moment in time, you were looking at me, I was looking at you, and time seemed to come to a standstill.
Could it be, what I thought I saw?
And for once, my words eluded me.
But, how could they, at a point I needed them the most?
The questions flowed through my head in an unceasing, endless stream. They made me dizzy, giddy even.
I wanted to run away from the emotions I refused to admit to, that I didn’t know how to deal with.
But I was trapped, entangled in that persistent gaze, that rhapsody.. that seemingly unavoidable weakness I felt?
How could I possibly begin to enjoy that certain vulnerability I seemed to experience every time you looked at me with eyes that seem to look through me with such accuracy that I have to grit my teeth to avoid turning away?
Could it be, that I was looking at love?
And in that moment in time, could we really have been one, again?