Grit my teeth
Give a smile
Hold it back
For a longer while
Hear the voices
Screaming inside
Run away
Nowhere to hide
Feel the tears
Ready to fall
Not prepared
To show it all
Keeping silent
While you scream
No chance you’d give
To let me redeem
Didn’t reveal
Was so in pain
You still look at me
With such disdain
How could you
Possibly claim
You can understand
All my shame
Get out of my life
You always say
Those words that
Torment me everyday
No different
Are you from them
Stop the pretense
Can’t give a damn
Stopped living
In my fairy tale
They did constantly say
I’d always fail
Won’t regret
How I act
It’s all been done
Can’t change the fact
So I hate myself
Should’ve let me die
Now you know
Stop asking why.
(and yet you still
ask me to find
a companion for whom
i thought was mine
now the tears
roll down my face
i relinquish them
remember the taste
the bitterness of sorrow
so painful but true
the representation
of the color blue
thought you might be
a distinctive change
to a life that i need
to rearrange
too much time
i waste to ponder
what i know
i’d never discover
how i tried
to understand you
you yourself knew
you were never true
wanted to pretend
perhaps i was wrong
made-belief that i
was really strong
but sometimes i falter
i start to cry
remembering instead
your last goodbye
your look your smile
your hugs that kiss
your words you know
i’ll always miss
but now that you
have said farewell
in time to come
i hope you’d tell
how you and i
were really meant to be
when your grandkids
sit upon your knee
time has finally
let me see
maybe you were never
the right one for me
it’s my turn now
i say adieu
let’s part our ways
i love you.)
